His Ascension is my dissension

I missed mass today, not because I got no mood to go or choose not to but I had to overtime in my camp to push out more vehicles for the upcoming exercise. I am very upset about it that my Warrant didn’t allow me to leave early even I have requested. This is not my first time having OT and can’t go for mass. Sigh, upset about the whole thing.

More annoying part is I didn’t even do anything about the day of Ascension like abstain or refrain from certain things. Feeling so disgrace about myself.

My OC spoke to me today, regarding how is my relationship with my section, and I found out some of them have been complaining about me. Not exactly know what they complained about but all my OC trying to bring the message across to me on leadership. And one thing that struck me most is, sometime we can be the cause of the whole problem but we do not realize if we dun often reflect about our doings. I totally agree with me. Not because I dun reflect or think about things, but I reflect and think about it a lot and at the end of it I chose to make lousy decision just because I simply can’t be bother with people constantly want more welfare and less work. And that’s where leadership comes in to MOTIVATE and INSPIRE them to work. Its so tiring to keep facing them thinking that they are always right and if they do something wrong we have to guide them. Its really life-taking… slowly I realized being a catholic is not easy and being a catholic in the ARMY is even more not easy. Somewhat somehow these ppl are constantly testing u and trying u out.

I just have to continue be humble and suck it up on whats going on and try to make things better. I know YOU will help me.

May... Be

Month of May… Be

Maybe I can be a doctor someday?
Maybe I can be pilot someday?
Maybe I can study my whole life?
Maybe I can be a great musician?
Maybe I can be a good husband?
Maybe I can have abs? hahaha
Maybe I can be the one? (sorry only applicable to girls)

There are so many maybes. Sometime I just dunno what I exactly want. Life has so much choice but sometime we choose not to decide and let it be. Hmmm making decision is a skill. U think u have it? Well everyone has that, its just the matter of whether u make a good decision or a bad one base on what u believe! No doubt we make wrong a bad decision base on what we feel ONLY, and never include your BRAIN. Haha. Well that’s my thought lately.

Eh now that am on MC till Thursday, really trying to do fruitful stuff and of coz at the same time get a good rest. I was surprised that the doctor was so generous to give me so many day MC when TTSH is the last place I hope to visit. Well, looks like my mindset has been changed. Hahaha. The ED, emergency department was very crowded yesterday but I was serve in less than an hour. Very impressed actually, and then comes the nurse to clean my wound… my gosh that was like my worse time of my life. She clean my wound till it look like it’s a fresh new wound! That’s how clean she did, and was so painful. She told me I should have use cotton for my wound cause it will stick. Well, learned my lesson.

Hmmm guess that’s all I will talk today!

MONDAY BLUES

Wow its been a long time i update my blog. haha seriously i got no mood or the time to update my blog, so really sorry for those who are interested to read up about my LIFE (KEPO) hahhaha. but its nice of u to read my thoughts and feeling.